Okay y’all, I’ma be candid as fuck right now: this quarantine life is driving me insane.
Now I understand some of y’all have found things to do at home whether it be working out, cleaning, trolling social media, or even starting your own business. Either way, it goes, you all have found something to occupy your time. And yes I have too, but even with those things, for some reason, it does not seem to be enough. Maybe it’s the lack of consistency that I have with these projects, or lifestyle changes, but for some reason, things just seem harder now that I have more time to do them. The crazy thing about it all is that a month has already passed! Like its low-key insane. However, this is the point of me writing this blog. Because I need to go back to expressing myself creatively. I need to make time for all of the things I want to do and create because simply, I have nothing but that: time. But I will not lie to you all, two days ago I had a mini-breakdown because this quarantine life was really hitting me. I hadn’t even thought to do a self-check with myself until I was crying in my girlfriend’s arms. It was at that specific moment that I realized, “Damn” this quarantine hitting me hard too. I haven’t lost my job, I haven’t stopped getting paid, I haven’t lost a family or friend due to this virus, and yet in still, I had a mental breakdown.
But I’m so grateful for that moment of frustration and uncertainty that I had because it gave me clarity on how I need to spend the rest of my time. The first thing is meditation, then creation, and then education. All of these are key components to the success and happiness of me. So yeah, basically, I’m taking care of my mental health by sharing how I felt, and while I’m checking in with myself, I’m checking in on y’all. How are y’all doing during this time?