It's something about a black woman and when her black girl magic radiates intensely through her pores, and into the world. That glow automatically attracts and exudes an energy that can't be, excuse my French "fucked with." For the last few weeks, I won't even lie, I've exuded this same glow. And what's crazy about it all is the fact that I didn't even know I was glowing until my co-worker said something to me. Once my co-worker gave me that compliment, I took a step back and began to re-evaluate myself and my new found "Glow", and I ain't gone lie, I was shook. I mean shookkkkkkkkk honey.
Now you may wonder why having a glow was such a surprise to me and it's simple: It wasn't something I was familiar with. Reason being is that my whole first year out of college was filled with depression & self-doubt. The easy going life I knew had altered, and shit got real. I had bills, my relationship of almost three years ended, friendships since high school got dissolved, and I was insecure about my looks due to the weight I gained. I won't lie, emotionally and mentally I was in a dark place. I wasn't happy. Even with all the accomplishments and new ventures I was experiencing, I still wasn't happy.
I was an living image of a cry for help. But as time went on, God put people, places, and things in my life to help me gain clarity on my purpose. These new experiences helped me get out of self pity, and get more into to self care. I begin to become more serious about my health, making sure not only did I work out weekly, but I also made sure I was eating things that made my body look and feel better. I also dived back into my creativity, and begin writing more scripts, poetry, and blog posts. I even got crazy one day and wrote a rap. I begin to re-ignite the passions that burned deep inside me, and got back to the person I wanted to be. So now, here I am, a year later, and I'm in a better place than I was a year ago. I am learning to love on me unconditionally flaws and all, and fall back in love with the things that make me whole. I am a vessel who has been put on this earth to create not conform, and that's how I plan to move in my life from this day forward.
So why am I writing this?
I'm writing to this to encourage anyone who may have been going through a similar situation, or similar feelings of being lost, feeling unvalued, to keep pushing forward. To find the things that make you happy, and expound on them. I am writing to let you know that self-love is really the best love, and even though I've had assistance with many people in reaching my place of happiness, I still owe myself gratitude for taking the initiative to want to be happy. You owe that to yourself, We all do. Being the creators of our own happiness & self-love, and being the purgers of our own self doubt. It's time we change the course of life in which we've walked, and use our transitional periods to really re-establish who we are and whom we want to be. For when we begin loving on ourselves, the glow, or in my case, the black girl magic radiance is unfuckwitable.
So Glow sis Glow, Grow sis Grow, and Go sis Go!